Believe

St. Anthony, 1247:

Everyone longs to give themselves completely to someone, to have a deep soul relationship with another, to be loved thoroughly and exclusively. But God, to a Christian, says:

No, not until you are satisfied with living loved by Me alone and have an intensely personal, unique relationship with Me alone. I love you my child, and until you discover that only in Me is your satisfaction, you will not be capable of the perfect human relationship that I planned for you. I want you to stop planning, stop wanting, and allow me to give you the most thrilling plan existing, one that you cannot imagine. I want you to have the best.

Please allow me to bring it to you, just keep watching Me, expecting the greatest things, keep experiencing that satisfaction knowing I am, keep learning and listening to the things I tell you. You must wait. Don't be anxious.

Don't worry. Don't look around at the things you want, just keep looking to Me or you will miss what I want to show you. And then, when you are ready, I will surprise you with a love far more wonderful than any you would ever dream of.

You see, until you are ready, and even to this very moment, to have both of you ready at the same time, until you are both satisfied with Me and the life I prepared for you, you wont be able to experience that love that exemplifies your relationship with me and is thus perfect love. And dear one, I want you to have this most wonderful love, I want you to see in the flesh a picture of your relationship with Me and to enjoy the everlasting union of beauty and love.

I am God.

Believe and be satisfied.

Monday, Monday (da daaa, da daa daa)

For no good reason, I tried on my senior prom dress earlier tonight. It's long and this pale silver-blue, almost white, by far the most beautiful thing I've ever owned - one of those dresses that doesn't look like a prom dress - and, if I may be so bold, the closest I've ever come to beautiful in anything I've ever worn (which is saying a lot, given that I spend most dances counting down the minutes till I can change into something along the lines of my favorite green ND gym shorts). Add "missing Badin's Christmas Dome Dance" to the short list of going-abroad-in-the-fall "cons."

Vision is in a day and a half! Tea is good. I sneezed 11 times in a row today. Marcus and I had lunch and he stopped mid-sentence to exclaim how weird it is that we were sitting at a little table outside eating lunch on a Monday afternoon and talking about life and love and going abroad like we're some kind of adults. I know exactly what you mean! I love when that happens, when you both know exactly what each other means.

I spent an hour and a half wandering around the bookstore holding one of two competing brands of Chile guidebook in each hand, trying to decide which of the worthy applicants to hire as my personal assistant for the upcoming semester. The Rough Guide to Chile is published by Penguin Books. That was an easy decision.